Last week was February break for most schools in New England. My family was very excited as we had booked a trip to Orlando for the week. We go every couple of years and stay at a great hotel, swim in the pool and do day trips including a Disney park if we can. It’s usually a quick trip to break up winter, get some much-needed Vitamin D and family connection. We are very fortunate that we can do this. As excited as everyone was, circumstances happen (you know, that sometimes-messy-thing called “life”)…..and just like that I became a single mom. My husband and I are not together. I am heartbroken, mourning the person that I have always considered to be my soul mate, angry at choices that have been made and a terrible infectious family disease that I have been gaslighted by for too long. (A friend coined this term which I think is an accurate description). I’m also real tired of being quiet. Everything is not fine.
Since this blog is about my empowerment and creativity, I’m going to keep writing about both, even if my world is falling apart temporarily. Sewing and being creative ease my soul and there’s going to be a lot of selfish sewing for me. I’m all about self-love right now.
Getting back to our Florida trip, I decided to take my children solo. I guess I didn’t really think things through and just plowed forward. We didn’t make it to Disney World but we did try Disney’s Animal Kingdom which was fun! Did I mention that the first night we were there my daughter finally caught the stomach bug (and here I was thinking we were the only family left in our town who didn’t get it …) and a 104 fever? Yes, she did. The TV ran constantly as I took care of her and tried to entertain a 5-year-old cooped up, little boy. Whew! But then she was better and we were off! We swam and played in the pool and took a day trip to Legoland, which was much less crowded and very much our speed. And yes, if you happened to be at the Orlando, Florida airport this past weekend, that was me crying in line as my children were not behaving at all. Nor were they listening to me when we were about to get on the plane to come home. But they are kids, and I was a tired mom. And that’s life.
When we were at Legoland, I met a very inspiring woman from England. She was a mom of FOUR boys, ages ranging from 2-10 and was single mom-ing it for two weeks in Orlando with her boys. Two weeks, people! Alone with FOUR young boys!!! Taking them to all the Disney parks!! ALONE!! This is when it dawned on me that most mothers are like Jedi-Masters. When I look at my friends, one with a painful ulcer and not one complaint as she wrangles her two little ones, two who have dealt with breast cancer, are still smiling and being the most excellent moms, and so many others with hardships under the surface and being the best they can be. We are seriously Jedi-Masters! We are training a small force of Jedi-knights and doing it with love and grace while carrying our tragedies along and getting through and beyond.
I’ll be back here soon to show you some great tops I sewed for our trip and discuss the patterns with you. Now go make yourself a cup of tea!